RE: One year already and I feel so sad and mad at the world tonight.

[HowieMCO]

I do not even no what to write. One year has gone buy and I miss him so fucking much it hurts my heart so bad. So sad and mad at the whole BS that took place. Have tons of guilt still and I guess that will never go away. I just can not beleive that I do not have him in my life and a year went buy so fast.

Howie

[HowieMCO]

Hi there beautiful girl. When I see your FB or emails to me it helps me so much. Thanks you so much for all your love and support for the past year. The guilt will never go away I am sad to say. I do feel like I let him down big time. I know in my heart that it is not that way but hard to keep that emotion down and to let it go. I am on the same page with you about the anger about the way things went down with that group of low lifes. They are all living there evil lives and that is really not fare. I am here for you too 24 / 7 / 365 if you need to vent. Miss you and love you so much. Keep Rocking the world sweetie. XOXO Howie

[Mia Heldt]

Howie, it breaks my heart to hear you have "guilt". You were a true friend, always there for him. I share your anger on many levels. Trust me, I understand. xo